Work or no work???

This is one of major decisions that each working woman has to take in her life after she has kids. My sis left her job 4 yrs back when she got married. Now she is a full time mom and her son just wouldnt let her get back to work and she is finding it very difficult to get a part time job. So she strongly feels that I shudnt leave my job. My maternity leave got over in July. My girl Baby N was just 3 months old and even I had not recovered completely. I decided take a one year sabbatical and thus began my stay at home mom role(a decent way of saying I am jobless and bring no money). Two months have flown and now my company has come up with this part-time job option. So the debate going on my mind is "Should I join back now?? I am going to be away only for 5 hrs..." I will be drawing half the salary and I need to avail this option for a minimum of 6 months.

Here are the reasons I give (first two to others and third to myself) for not joining:

• I stay in the city and my work place is a good 2 hrs away from here. So even if it is 5 hrs work I will be effectively away for 8-9 hrs from my kutti.


• Also this travel will be too much for a person who had c-sec.


• Million dollar question: Who will take care of the kid? My MIL cannot take care of her alone.
  

I suggested my hubby that we rent a house close to my work place for 2 yrs (My parents are willing to come and stay with us and take care of Baby N). This way I can spend quality time with Baby N and still go to work. For some reason financial dependence is killing me (My hubby is real good when it comes to money. He doesnt mind giving as much money as I need and actually feels bad when I say no). I have not once felt bad to take money from dad. Am I a feminist at heart? I dont know.... It is high time I decided on something as my relationship with my hubby is taking new turn...... At this rate I might have to get back full time work sooner..much earlier than I had planned..